All right then

So it has been a while since I have been here and usually I have an idea as to what I am going to write about before I start writing here? However I am just kicking back watching TV (Nitro Circus) and I felt like dropping a note.

Well lately I have been bouncing around more then Pam Anderson did on Bay Watch. I have been playing with my dosages and it has been costing me a lot of pain. When I say playing around it doesn't mean that I was intentionally doing this, I was more trying to play Dr. and adjust my meds because I was suffering too much depression and for some dumb reason I felt like if I adjusted one of my meds that it would level out the other med and cause me less depression.....in the words of Homer Simpson, Doh!

I have learned my lesson and will not adjust my meds again. It is just amazing what just little dosages can do to you? I am back on my regular dosage and I am beginning to feel much better. If you know anything about taking depression medications you know that it doesn't just take one day for the meds to work, it can take up to about 4 - 8 weeks, and even then the degrees at which the medication, (At least in my case) can adjust slowly and even though it may start working at or around 4-6 weeks, there seems to be a continual curve at which the medications continue to work. Sometimes they may start to work and then they will just fall off the chart and you won't feel anything after that? Other times it will continually work and eventually it will work for good. Well good is a relative term, as good can mean many things when it comes to medications for BP or Depression. Meaning it may work for a little while and then slowly fall off and then eventually not work at all, or it may just keep working for, well for a very long time. I know some people that take the same medication that they were perscribed when they were initially diagnosed. So it is really a hit or miss kind of game, and the wonderful thing is that is varies from person to person?

So the gist of what I am saying here is don't be a dumbass like me, and I know it is very tempting, and I know that it is very likely that you will, but I can at least say it isn't a good idea. And like all people that tell us that something isn't a good idea.....we all go and do it because sometimes experience is the better teacher!

Have fun and make sure you take all your meds!