Side effects and the individual....

As you all know life as a Bi-Polar is always difficult! It isn't from lack of trying or from lack of medication, it is you never know what to expect? I can do the same thing on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and even Friday and then all of a sudden on Saturday I will start to feel a bit out of kilter, then on Sunday and all of the following week I will feel like shit! All I will want to do is sleep, and lay about, not talk to others and barely eat?

I guess I am lucky in many ways as I do know of people that have it worse and their fluctuations are much more severe. They have violent outswings and their depressions may be more severe or less severe, but their manic attacks may or will be much more severe?

My point here is more that as a person with Bi-Polar we all know about the severity and the fluctuations. How painful they can be and honesty where our lives feel at a given moment. But we feel various emotions including humility, shame, introspective feeling on who and what we are? Basically what I am trying to say is that as we have been consumed by this dreaded Disease we are also consumed by varying feeling of emotions that are not directly related to this illness, and I am sure that these feelings vary by person to person.

Try and remember that if you know someone that have this illness, that just because you have read something about what they may be experiencing in a book, they may also be feeling other emotions that are not always so obvious, and not always spoken about as much as the standared side effects of this illness.

This damn illness reaches far and wide depending on the individual, so just because your friend Dave has the illness, this does not mean that your cousin mike will have the same side effects.