Recent experiences and behaviors

It has been quite a while since my last post, like everything in life there is a multitude of reasons. On the upside many of my main hurdles are now gone. Not that I am the only one with life hurdle, but some of mine took a little more energy then I thought they would.

I am beginning to learn some of the not so obvious difficulties of living with this illness. One of them being that when some people find out that someone has this illness, they automatically change their course of behavior and want to treat the person with BP as a sort of pariah. Now I am open and as honest as I can be, and I try to let everyone know what is going on with me, but there are times when it is better to hold back a little, especially when you meet someone and you are not sure which way the relationship will go. I have always said that I am not ashamed of this illness, especially because I didn't ask for it, and I would never wish it on someone. With this being said I would love for people to take the time to ask me questions, or ask anyone with this questions. When the dust settles, it is just that at times our brains run a "bit" faster, and at other times, we feel we are justified in curling up in a ball and hiding for days. I am trying to simplify this illness, I am just trying to say to others that it isn't as bad as holly wood or your grand parents make it out to be.

There are many well known people in the public eye with this illness, and many more that are not in the public eye. The one response I usually get from say about 80% of the people is, "Oh, my cousin has that, and it was a little rough at first, but now he is doing great!" And of course what they are saying is that now that he is on his Med's all the time he is fine. And this is the point, if you have this illness, you take Meds, and if you take Meds, you usually get better or at least stay at the Status Quo. (Which I am not sure if that is good? lol)

I am saying all this as I have of recently been shunned aside because of this illness, and I am positive that the person that did this never took the time to talk with a BP'r, let alone me about the illness.

Well more later, and it is good to be back. I lost my password for a while and couldn't get in. But hopefully I will be back writing more and sharing stories from either the speeding mind or of the Black hole lost in the darkness mind. Hopefully it will be more of the first one or the middle.