Day by Day, Minute by Minute

Some days things seem that they can go one way, and suddenly they end up going the other way. Wednesday I was feeling pretty down and I feared that the black days were coming back. And if anyone who has BP knows, this is indeed a very scary feeling. It is like you don't have a choice, you try to think positive thoughts and try to move quite a bit more physically. And you hope that it won't come. But it usually does and then all you can do is wait, wait for what you hope is the end. And like I said before, you look for those seconds in the minutes where you are not in that Black Mode!

Well, I went to bed feeling this way and as usual I couldn't sleep! Of course I had to get up early the next day, (Isn't always that way?) so after doing the things that needed my attention thursday morning, I was pleasantly surprised to find myself in a good mood? and of course when this happens I think I get more suspect then I really should, butI think you can understand why?

One of the difficult things about being Bi-Polar is that you never really know which mood you may wake up with, or which you will go to bed with? Especially if you are a Rapid Cycle type.
You have to enjoy the minutes, and it kind of teaches you to stay focused on the current moment, rather then get caught up in the mass of BS that we do most of the time.

I guess in some ways there are some good things about being BP, but like everything in life, you have to look for them.