Another day, another $1.94

Another day, another $1.94

I wish, lol actually the day was spent running around and taking care of various things that needed my attentions. However when I did finish I was completely taxed! It is odd, but I have been very tired both mentally and physically after a few hours of activity? Mostly, mentally tired! I literally have to just "close off" the world and kind of "re-charge"!  It is kind of like letting the reverberations of the day fizzle out. If that make any sense? But the problem is that if I start at 7am the recharge has to be around noon? And like I said the other day, this is probably because of my coping mechanisms are a little "low"?

This illness takes so much from you, and in ways I never would have thought? Not only does it slow you down in many ways, it also makes you look at life a little differently! In some ways I listen to the ways that some people talk, the volume, the cadence the flow of the syntax. And in doing this you learn a lot more about the people, not to say that I didn't do this prior to becoming officially ill, but, I believe that I do it with a more detailed approach? I also think that maybe I do it to see if I can tell if someone may also be BP?

In case you have never spoken with a BP'r, we can most times tell is someone that we meet may have BP, or something similar? Someone the other day said something about it being because as a person who has BP, we have spent our lives in sort of an emotional hiding game. And if we see someone doing the same kind of thing it kind of sets off a bell in our head.  The person made a great point in saying that BP people "Don't have open mood swings", and then she said she that one way she has learned is"to recognize someone with an illness is by the way they allow others to perceive them...make sense?"  I thought this was an interesting perspective and I think it goes back to our need and ability to hide our illness from everyone.  In keeping certain aspects from others we feel that we are not letting our illness out of the bag. And when someone like the person who stated this, or even myself sees someone who is doing this it sets off a bell and then we have a pretty good idea as to the others potential!

So be warned......we know you're out there!  

Just kidding, of course you're out there!