Today I was Thinking..

Today I was thinking about what it is like to have Bi-Polar, what it is like at various stages, the ups and downs and inbetween. So I decided I would do a blog and kind of keep track of all of this stuff.
My intent is to be able to look back over time and learn what I am like at times during each stage, and hopefully be able to share this with some people who know me and don't quite understand what it is I am going thru, and or what it is like to live with this thing they call Bi-Polar.

Today was miserable, and still is. I have been just hanging in there all day. Which seems to be what a lot of being down is about. Just hanging in there and not really losing it, or more importantly not losing it and not knowing where it will go? When you have a wet towel over your head and your eyes are semi filled with tears at any thought of good bad, etc. It is often difficult to tell where anything will go? Do you sit there and cry, do you sit there and stare at a wall, do I try to keep busy, or try to put myself in a position where I am surrounded by others? This is what I do not know, what I ask myself time after time when I am in this state.